Saturday, August 27, 2005
Warning: post might contain senseless stuff to u
:::Warning.. This post cud contain stuff that dun make sense to reader @ all.. for me however its a way to release some stuff in my head n think stuff over:::My life is a wreck. I duno wads happened to me. Wadeva drove me to keep going or do wad i luved to do has gone away. Ive lost all motivation to do wadeva im doing..im just meaninglessly doing stuff.. So much fucked up stuff has happened.. Mayb **** was right.. mayb i hav changed..bcus of this change ive lost many things close to my heart.. including my drive to live life to the fullest.. I feel like crap now.. however blogging now, i realise something. I have to stop being the person i am now n jus go bak to hu i really am.. only then can i earn back wad i lost. Right now however.. things r very shitty...
I cant deny the fact. My change of attitude has earned me many enemies.. and the loss of many friends.. time to stop this.. i want to feel good again.. feel that im living to the fullest.. not living without any drive and feeling like shit everyday... In order to do this.. i realise now that i have to really give up this character of mine..
My passion for guitar. The kick i get in bowling. My drive for YM. My luv of GOD. Its all fading away. Unless i solve this crisis NOW ill pretty much lose it for good.
On Monday ill enter skul a changed person. i noe it will b tough on the route to the re-discovery of my true self. But i HAVE to do it. Der will b fucked up stuff and challenges. But im rdy. Here goes...
Thank god i blogged all this out.. im feeling a lil more motivated now.
Posted by 'chris†ian.™ at 6:28 AM
Hey, im christian and im your average o lvl student complete with stress and regular migrains!
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